“Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy – The experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.” – Brene Brown
If you aren’t free of yourself how will you ever become yourself?
— From the Tao Te Ching
This grief, depression, whatever it is,
Has been weighing me down for days.
I try to move to shake it off
But it just wants to stay.
It’s been fed by trauma
And many have I had
Lately my life seems to be
Less good and more bad.
So now I just sit here
And feel life slipping by
Not caring, full of apathy
Only managing to cry
Waiting for this wave to crest
To ride it back to shore
Because I still have hope
There are still good days in store.
On those nights when it’s the darkest
There’s no light within your eyes.
All your hope has faded
And the tears will never dry.
That’s the time to regain focus
To close your eyes and breathe
And calm your mind and your soul
To reclaim what is underneath.
Center yourself, and you will see it.
A tiny burning spark.
Your ember of inner fire
That can still conquer the dark.
Let it draw you to it.
Like a moth to proverbial flame.
It will never hurt you.
But you won’t ever be the same.
Once the fire consumes you and
The flames extinguish your tears
The strength you feel will overcome
Those troubles you’ve had for years.
Keep those eyes closed tight and watch
All the negativity burn away
Let your entire self become the light
And wake to a brand new day.